new chapter in my training/feminization

This weekend my Mistress and I will step into a new chapter in my training/feminization. I will have to wear a chastity cage for the whole weekend....here's the first pic. OMG, I feel so humiliated and helpless

happy birthday Mistress....and new commitment

wow...I can't believe it's been almost two month since my last post. This is unacceptable considering that the initial order of my Mistress were to report in this blog on an ongoing basis about my training and feminization. However, the last two month were quite busy and I admit that my training and feminization did come too short, but I'm committed to change that going forward and put the necessary focus on my feminization and show obedience to my Mistress.

Dear Mistress, I also wish you a happy birthday....I kneel down in front of you and kiss your high heels and promise you that I will submit to you, serve you and obey you better from now on.

I think today's voluntary wearing of makeup almost all day and practicing sucking on my dildo was a good start, let's see where my Mistress will lead me.

pumping gas...

I just got back from a public outing order my Mistress gave me. I had to pump gas while wearing my 6" high heel boots. I had to pump gas in heels before, but never in 6" heels and believe they are quite tall and create loud noise while walking on the hard concrete. However, I did it and I feel now very proud, especially as I didn't feel very submissive after my workout this afternoon, but I told myself that I have to do this for my Mistress and that she knows best what's good for me.....thank you Mistress!

hopefully pleasing my Mistress

As I mentioned in one of my last posts, lately I was a little bit lazy in regards to being a good sissy for my Mistress. A week ago she really put me in my proper place and reminded me who's in charge and who's the sissy. To remind me even more about my status and purpose I received the order to post an add on craigslist again, offering myself as a sissy maid to a local couple. You can read my post here. Unfortunately so far nobody responded, but I don't give up hope yet.

As a matter of fact, just today I got a reply to an email I sent a few days ago to a Mistress with whom I was in contact last year. She's the dominant side of a kinky couple who are looking for a maid, however, last year they just engaged with one and so they dropped me. But now they seem to be interested again. We'll see where this goes, I keep you posted.

Last but not least, I ordered a new maid dress. Unfortunately it's not available yet and will ship only in August, but it's georgeous. Here's a pic

sissy maid for a local couple

This is probably one of my most secret fantasies as a submissive sissy. I would love to be a sissy maid for a local couple, I would have to serve them and please them. I would have to visit them at least once a week to perform domestic duties, of course while being fully dressed up with maid uniform, high heels, wig and makeup. Besides this duty, they would use me in any additional they wish. That could be being their sex servant/toy, by getting him ready for her or having to orally clean her after he deposited his load into her pussy. But it might also be as a maid servant at parties they have or other gatherings. Overall, the couple would allow me to live my own live, they would respect me and treat me well, but of course also put me in my place and let me know who's in charge. They could make use of me anytime, e.g. an idea would be that we would meet for lunch during the week and afterwards he would make me suck him, swallow and then I would have to go back to my work place....omg, how humiliating. Or she would use me during parties with her girlfriends.
Maybe one day this fantasy will come ture :-)

I am a sissy....period

Although I didn't feel very submissive in the last few days, when I got home today I realized again that I am a sissy and always will be a sissy. I must serve, obey and submit to my Mistress, trust her experience in training and feminizing me as she knows best what's good for me. I understand and accept that this will include humiliating acts and feminization beyond my comfort level, however, she is superior as a female and I must worship her, show respect and be grateful for her feminization training on me. I am and always will be a sissy....and this is good!

...out in public

Last Wednesday I had my second public outing, the local ProDomme I serve from time to time took me out to a bar in Castro district of SF.....after she used me and bend me over for her pleasure. The outing was actually quite okay, nobody seemed to care too much about us, only the bartender once asked if "you ladies" would like to get a new drink.