Friday, September 24, 2010

new chapter in my training/feminization


This weekend my Mistress and I will step into a new chapter in my training/feminization. I will have to wear a chastity cage for the whole weekend....here's the first pic. OMG, I feel so humiliated and helpless

Sunday, July 25, 2010

happy birthday Mistress....and new commitment

wow...I can't believe it's been almost two month since my last post. This is unacceptable considering that the initial order of my Mistress were to report in this blog on an ongoing basis about my training and feminization. However, the last two month were quite busy and I admit that my training and feminization did come too short, but I'm committed to change that going forward and put the necessary focus on my feminization and show obedience to my Mistress.
Dear Mistress, I also wish you a happy birthday....I kneel down in front of you and kiss your high heels and promise you that I will submit to you, serve you and obey you better from now on.
I think today's voluntary wearing of makeup almost all day and practicing sucking on my dildo was a good start, let's see where my Mistress will lead me.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

pumping gas...

I just got back from a public outing order my Mistress gave me. I had to pump gas while wearing my 6" high heel boots. I had to pump gas in heels before, but never in 6" heels and believe they are quite tall and create loud noise while walking on the hard concrete. However, I did it and I feel now very proud, especially as I didn't feel very submissive after my workout this afternoon, but I told myself that I have to do this for my Mistress and that she knows best what's good for me.....thank you Mistress!

Monday, May 10, 2010

hopefully pleasing my Mistress

As I mentioned in one of my last posts, lately I was a little bit lazy in regards to being a good sissy for my Mistress. A week ago she really put me in my proper place and reminded me who's in charge and who's the sissy. To remind me even more about my status and purpose I received the order to post an add on craigslist again, offering myself as a sissy maid to a local couple. You can read my post here. Unfortunately so far nobody responded, but I don't give up hope yet.

As a matter of fact, just today I got a reply to an email I sent a few days ago to a Mistress with whom I was in contact last year. She's the dominant side of a kinky couple who are looking for a maid, however, last year they just engaged with one and so they dropped me. But now they seem to be interested again. We'll see where this goes, I keep you posted.

Last but not least, I ordered a new maid dress. Unfortunately it's not available yet and will ship only in August, but it's georgeous. Here's a pic



Saturday, April 24, 2010

sissy maid for a local couple

This is probably one of my most secret fantasies as a submissive sissy. I would love to be a sissy maid for a local couple, I would have to serve them and please them. I would have to visit them at least once a week to perform domestic duties, of course while being fully dressed up with maid uniform, high heels, wig and makeup. Besides this duty, they would use me in any additional they wish. That could be being their sex servant/toy, by getting him ready for her or having to orally clean her after he deposited his load into her pussy. But it might also be as a maid servant at parties they have or other gatherings. Overall, the couple would allow me to live my own live, they would respect me and treat me well, but of course also put me in my place and let me know who's in charge. They could make use of me anytime, e.g. an idea would be that we would meet for lunch during the week and afterwards he would make me suck him, swallow and then I would have to go back to my work place....omg, how humiliating. Or she would use me during parties with her girlfriends.
Maybe one day this fantasy will come ture :-)

Friday, April 16, 2010

I am a sissy....period

Although I didn't feel very submissive in the last few days, when I got home today I realized again that I am a sissy and always will be a sissy. I must serve, obey and submit to my Mistress, trust her experience in training and feminizing me as she knows best what's good for me. I understand and accept that this will include humiliating acts and feminization beyond my comfort level, however, she is superior as a female and I must worship her, show respect and be grateful for her feminization training on me. I am and always will be a sissy....and this is good!

Sunday, April 11, 2010

...out in public

Last Wednesday I had my second public outing, the local ProDomme I serve from time to time took me out to a bar in Castro district of SF.....after she used me and bend me over for her pleasure. The outing was actually quite okay, nobody seemed to care too much about us, only the bartender once asked if "you ladies" would like to get a new drink.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

...finally the dress fits

This weekend I tried on a dress I bought earlier this year and finally I'm able to close it after loosing a few pounds....omg, it feels so good.


I miss my Mistress so much, she's on a vacation and will only be back early next week. She absolutely deserves her vacation and I promised to not text her, but I have to admit that I was really close today.
I also made an appointment with the local ProDomme I see, so this week I will get the opportunity to serve her and submit to her....I will let you know how it was.


Tuesday, March 16, 2010

sissy thoughts throughout the day

Today was one of those days when I couldn't wait to get home and dress for my Mistress.....it feels so good to be fully dressed, wearing high heels and even to be plugged.....very appropriate for a little sissy like me, and it reminds me of my status and who is in charge

Friday, March 12, 2010

Friday March 12

Finally, after 3 days I did chat with my Mistress last night again. She was happy that I did my tribute and reminded me that I have to publish 3 posts per week about my sissy experiences/feelings. I still feel quite humiliated about this, knowing that basically everybody can read about my feminization, but in moments like these Mistress alwasy reminds me "remember you asked me to feminize you sissy, and females keep diaries."
This morning I was able to visually adore and worship a woman at work, as she was walking down the hallway in front of me wearing at least 4" high heels....omg, I was just thinking please let me kneel down for you and kiss your shoes.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

sissy kylie on a business trip


Last week I've been on a business trip and in order to stay reminded of my place, my Mistress ordered me to take panties, bra, stockings, dress, high heels, and a butt-plug with me. I was supposed to wear these items whenever I was in the hotel room. Unfortunately, I didn't had enough free space anymore to take the high heels and dress with me, and so I only wore my panties, bra, stockings and butt-plug in the hotel room. I informed my Mistress about this, however, after I got back we discussed it and she was not pleased about leaving the high heels at home. In our discussion we concluded that I didn't exhaust all possible options to take the high heels with me, even if some of them would have been discomfortable or humiliating for me, e.g. carrying them in the carry-on. Because of that my Mistress decided that I need reminder that her commands come before my discomfort and thus I had to stand for 45min in the corner yesterday and think about my status and duties as her sissy.


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

....brand new boots...omg!!

Yesterday my new high heel boots arrived and I love, love, love them. They fit like a glove and look so sexy. However, with 6" heels they are also quite tall and feel much steeper than my 5" high heels.

Friday, February 19, 2010

first entry


Today I finally fulfilled the order of my Mistress to create an online diary about my sissification and feminization training. Since over four years now I'm collared by the best Mistress in the world, Mistress Rose, and she trained, sissified and feminized me over the years into her sissy. I'm so grateful that I have her and that I may be her sissy, I will always serve, submit and love her. While my training started out fairly low key with the usual panty/bra/pantyhose wearing, in the meantime I'm her fully feminized sissy and I do accept and surrender to my place. In normal life I'm still a regular man, and would like to keep it this way, but at home and on the weekends I'm Mistress little sissy girl. Since about a year we slowly make some first steps in real time and I think I'm about due to make a significant big step in r/t pretty soon......but more about this another time.